You Were Made to Be Courageous

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The story I am about to share is probably long overdue. Over the past two months, I’ve tried to sit down and write a blog post about it, but I just couldn’t find the right words. Today, I had a random spark of inspiration to try again, and as I logged on to WordPress, I had a notification that today is my blog’s anniversary! Funny how things work out like that. So back to the story at hand…

About two months ago, I felt God calling me to lead what my church calls a “journey group”. Basically as a church, we spend 6 weeks exploring a topic through the weekend message, individualized reflection, and small-group discussions. This year’s journey was called the “I Am” journey, and it was all about digging deeper to learn about who God created us to be. We were pushed to learn about ourselves wholeheartedly —  the good, the bad, the ugly.

Going into the journey, I had just landed an amazing ‘big-girl’ job that would have transitioned to full-time right after I graduated. It was a high-paying job at an amazing family-owned company with a lot of opportunity to travel. After deciding that I no longer wanted to pursue the medical route, it was a dream come true.

However, throughout the six weeks of the journey, I really started to feel unsure about this new venture, and I felt lost. I knew God was trying to tell me something, but I wasn’t quite sure.

During the fifth week’s service, He spoke loud AND clear. Memories and recollections of events in both recent and very distant years started flooding in my mind all at once —  all memories that had tied into my long lost dream of becoming a teacher. I can’t really explain the sensation I felt, but out of nowhere I felt tears rolling down my cheeks because I was invigorated by this message from God but also so, so scared.

I brought it to my small group first, and they all undoubtedly encouraged me to think a lot more about this message, and they believed that it really was from God. So the next step was perhaps the hardest for me. I had to muster up the courage to sit my parents down and tell them I was considering furthering my education to pursue a career in teaching.

Keep in mind this would mean giving up an amazing job opportunity that every parent wants for their child coming right out of college. I was so afraid they would be upset or think I’m crazy, but after dinner one night, I broke down and laid it ALL on the table, and you know what? I am SO blessed to have such supportive parents who took it all in, encouraged me to take my time to think about the situation, but assured me they would back me 100% either way. I felt so free and relieved that I could start putting this new plan from God into action.

The following weeks weren’t easy as I frantically searched for a job more related to the education field, applied to the Master of Teaching program, and made a few difficult phone calls in regards to the ‘big-girl’ job. But I can surely tell you that the uncomfortableness, stress, and confusion was all worth it.

Two months later, I have landed an amazing job working at a Montessori school where I am surrounded by phenomenal coworkers and children who teach me countless new things each and every day. Finding my current workplace was a God send because it has been such a good fit mutually, and it’s the happiest I’ve ever been in a workplace. I can’t explain it, but I can come home from an eleven hour work day absolutely exhausted but energized all at the same time. It’s a beautiful thing that only comes from finding true enjoyment in my job. I let my visions of job and financial security go in pursuit of the plans that my Father had for me.

Time and time again in the last few months God has proven to me that He is pleased I took this leap of faith, and now I really feel like we are walking through life together. Now, let me assure you, everything isn’t all flowers and roses as I have a lot of decision-making to do with exactly what direction I want to pursue with my educational future, but I strongly believe that God has something amazing in store if I continue to rely on and trust in Him.

Friends, I didn’t share this story because I want you to quit your job tomorrow because you aren’t in love with it. I share this story because I want you to be COURAGEOUS like our Father made you. Whatever that looks like for you, if God is calling you towards something, don’t let fear get in the way. I assure you His plans are better than anything you could dream for yourself.

Love always,

Megan LouAnn

What’s Your Talent?

The following is a reflection from this weekend’s message from Crossroads, so feel free to watch the service via crossroads.net to have a little bit of background on where I’m coming from!


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You know those quizzes and surveys that float around Facebook that tell you what your major should be, what Hollywood actress you’re most like, and what kind of tree represents your personality? I’m addicted to them. I know that for the most part, they’re kind of silly and don’t usually represent anything that remotely resembles the truth of who you are, but they’re fun. I think a lot of people enjoy taking those surveys because we desire to learn more about who we are or who others perceive us to be. But it’s weird — we seem to spend the majority of our time engaging in friendships, relationships, etc. while trying to learn all about other people, but do we really spend an adequate amount of time reflecting on who we really are? Because we are so much more than a ‘science major’, ‘Audrey Hepburn-like’, ‘pine tree’ type of person.

I can list off a lot of things that I am, a lot of things that I like, dislike, places I like to go, movies I like to watch, etc. but it’s not so clear when I try to think about who I am at the core. What talents has God instilled in me, specifically, to share His word with the world? What about me is different from most others around me? What do I bring to the table? Those questions dig a whole lot deeper than what’s my ‘favorite this or that’, and because of that, they’re so much harder to answer.

However, God has given each and every one of us a unique ‘spark’ and a unique way of functioning. If we were all the same, could you imagine how dull this world would be… Sure, there probably wouldn’t be nearly as many arguments, fights, etc., but would you want to live in a world where everyone did what everyone else was doing? Everyone thought what everyone else was thinking? Of course not. Our differences are what makes this world utterly beautiful despite all of the inherent brokenness. The best teams are made up of very different individuals who all bring a specific edge to the group in order to achieve a common goal.

I believe that God is never going to shout down to us and say something like, ‘Hey Megan! I gave you the unique ability to do XY and Z, so start doing that more!’. He might – I mean that would be pretty wicked – but I think God’s desire is for us to go through trial, error, and exploration to figure it out with his guidance. So where do we begin? I think a good place to start is to take a survey developed by the Crossroads team that addresses five true talents given in the Bible from Paul in Ephesians 4:11-13.

I know what you’re thinking… ‘Megan, you literally just said five minutes ago that online surveys are silly and don’t tell us anything about who we are!’. I know, I did say that five minutes ago. However, this survey comes from a context that can certainly help us discover more about who we are, and although the ‘True Talent Indicator’ isn’t necessarily a perfect representation of who you are and what your God-given talents are, it’s an excellent place to start. I encourage you to take the time to do the survey and then more importantly, take the time to reflect on your results and what they might mean for you. Pray about it. Talk about it. Think about it. Here’s the link:

crossroads.net/truetalentindicator

As for me, I had a near tie between Futurist (prophet) and Trainer (teacher). I plan to reflect on this over the next week and return here on Sunday to flesh out some of my ideas. Let me know your results in the comments below! Thank you all for reading, and I hope you have an amazing week!

Love always,

Megan LouAnn

Isaiah is my Homeboy

Disclaimer: I did not know what to title this, but read until the end to find out why I titled it the way I did.

*takes a deep breath* *smiles*

It feels so good to be writing again, here on WordPress. I’m not going to say sorry for not posting in a while because quite frankly, I have had zero free time to do so since the start of the fall semester. But I will say that I’m glad I’m back and that I missed it dearly. Things have been rather crazy lately and unfortunately writing has been put on the back-burner out of necessity.

So what exactly HAS been going on?! First and foremost classes have been swallowing me whole and drowning me in homework, projects, etc. I actually made the decision to drop a class which was really difficult because…

  1. I do not like to feel like a failure or like I can’t handle something and..
  2. I had to go through like 9 different sources in order to find out if I could drop the class and keep my scholarship (which I could – thank goodness)

But I was finally able to accept that I really needed to drop one of my classes in order to not rip my hair out and focus on other classes. I honestly think I would have been more of a failure had I blindly continued on and killed my GPA by the end of the semester.

Secondly, and on a lighter note, we just finished with recruitment weekend at NKU and brought home 46 amazinggggggggggggg new members. We put in a lot of work, and it really paid off and turned out to be a super fun weekend!

Regardless…

Life has been busy. Life has been stressful. Life has been changing. But I have to take a step back and realize that that’s life, and I’m surrounded by so many people who love and support me every step of the way. I’ve accepted a new position at my job in addition to my old one, and I absolutely love it. I’ve gotten more involved on campus and realized just how lucky I am to be receiving a higher education (despite how hard it can be at times…). I have been reassured that I’m on the right path and that I can be a leader. I have missed a few weekends at church, but I have continued to rely on the big man upstairs especially when things got really out of control. Sometimes we have to remind ourselves that we are doing better than we think we are, and I’ve had to do a lot of that lately.

I hope to be back writing on a more regular basis, but these days, I honestly never know. Has anybody else been overly stressed lately or have some awesome, positive news to share?! Comment down below!

Isaiah 40: 30,31  “Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.  They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”

Love always,

Megan LouAnn